Features an alternative ending on side A.
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Both of Tjalling's full-length albums spread across two sides of a single C66 cassette tape with original hybrid-collage artwork by Tjalling de Leeuw. Includes immediate download of "a self repressed lie". Limited copies in smokey clear shells!
Includes unlimited streaming of a self repressed lie
via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
I'm not allowed to let it out
I could not find my way
All the way into,
The night, your life
You know the drill
I walk around
In between these two
Realities with you
Should have seen what I saw in you
Could have felt so wonderful
Should have seen what it means
What I saw in you
As I write you out of my head, don't just stand there
I can't stand that
Oh, how we turned air into something else
We became indifferent
Indifferent to all the people and their trouble
No matter what would they say
They would hurt us anyway
Should have seen what I saw in you
Could have felt so wonderful
Should have seen what it means
What I saw in you
Always needing more
I'll be at your door
Closer than before
I wish that you could hear me
Always needing more (do you want some more)
I'll be at your door (because I’m always bored)
Closer than before (do you want some more)
I wish that you could help me
Always needing more
I'll be at your door
Closer than before
I wish that you could want me
Something so strange, can't let it slide
Until I break, I'll try to fight
But not for long, your scent is too strong
Freaking me out with one single touch
Don't ask me why, I won't know how
To find any words describing the love
Something so strange, can't let it slide
Please, let me fly all through your life
I know I should cry but I'm too mesmerized
Something so strange, can't let it slide
Eyes open wide,
realization of a self repressed lie
I don’t feel fine
& I won’t feel fine
I danced around the fire,
I promised to inspire
Sadly
Only ashes to admire
My vision, so dull so bleak
under saturated black and white compositions
A disorienting work of visual art
As the movement of everything becomes nothing more
than a blur.
Didn't try, wouldn't work
Never did so I stay put
Watch the cars, watch the sky
Sift through days, you're in the corner of my eye
A fragile heart under skin & bones
Some people talk, other ones cry
But not me, let it build up inside
I don't have words for what I found
Can't get you out of my system
We shouldn't wait, there is no time
We shouldn't wait, everything passes by
Would you want to lie to me?
Ever so slightly
So I can pass through life
While suffering quietly
Did we dance that night?
Or did you trick my mind?
Did I watch you sleep?
Or did my mind trick me?
This has to be it (I won’t go)
This has to mean something to you
This has to mean something, but maybe not enough
Frying my brain but won't forget anything
Nothing works, I can't kill you
Though I'm still frying, won't forget I was trying
Nothing works
I'm done trying, I'm done trying
It doesn’t work
Cannot close my eyes
I see it all pass me by
Can’t say I haven’t tried
believing the lie
I’m stuck where I stand
& I want to reach for your hand
You’re so far away
I might just drown in the sand
There is no time, I don't have words
Push a hand through a wall, but does it exist?
Are they staring at me? With no life in their eyes
No cloud in the sky, that can't be right
Picture you and there you are
Am I wandering too far?
That is not quite your hair
And that's not quite your smile
I'm not all there, so I don't try
I wish to see a certain sky
Wish to believe a certain lie
That makes me feel what you can do
There's no way for it to change
Slowly losing color
We won't ever solve this
There's no way for it to change
Slowly losing life
We won't ever solve this
There is no way for it to change
I will not change.
No way
I can't stop it, so I just drop it
Sit out my time for another day
I have these dreams, they keep me reeling
But you don't really need me
I can't stop it, so I just drop it
Sit out my time for another day
I have these dreams, they keep me reeling
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